White Silence And Complicity

We're onto chapter Four of Layla F. Saads Me and White Supremacy. White Silence. My this is taking longer than I thought. I have to constantly remind myself this is not a race but an ongoing process. White Silence is the defending of the status quo. I defend my guilt and silence by assuming I … Continue reading White Silence And Complicity

Peaceful Imaginings

Mindfulness has never sat easy with me. A mix of boredom and frustration. Grounding techniques and being mindful of my environment can help with anxiety and panic attacks. However, as a long term coping strategy I shy away from it, I struggle to figure out the difference between noticing a thought and thinking about a … Continue reading Peaceful Imaginings

Celebrating The Little Victories

Today I printed off the first four revised chapters of my novel, complete with character, location and plot point notes. A very exciting day. Now onto to the next 10,000 words! It will hopefully go a lot quicker than the first lot now I'm getting into the swing of things. Half my time is spent … Continue reading Celebrating The Little Victories

Learning about Cults?

I've not much to say today. I'm sleepy and have a nagging pain about my shoulder. Life has felt a little busier, and dare I say it, a bit more hopeful, as of late. Perhaps there will be an eventual end to this lockdown? Recently I've been watching a lot of youtube around cult mentality, … Continue reading Learning about Cults?

Getting Back Into It

I had a late start to the day, anxiety has spiked for some reason. Yesterday I gave feedback for writers group. It took a lot of brain power. Missing two weeks affected me far more than I thought. I enjoy giving a critique, it's a fun way to learn how to be a better writer … Continue reading Getting Back Into It

Relationships

The past few days I've been struggling with stomach cramps. hot water bottle and curled up in bed. Writing didn't happen, or at least not much. the hour change was a pain in the ass too. If there was any year we could all collectively ignore British Summer Time it's this one. What does it … Continue reading Relationships

It’s Beginning To Hit Home

I have taken the virus seriously since it began. Not because i'm incredibly altruistic or restrained. I seriously feared for my life due to asthma. I am also privileged because I'm not currently in work, so there were no difficult decisions to make. On wednesday my anxiety reached new peaks. My husband was tired through … Continue reading It’s Beginning To Hit Home

Shaking But Writing

My heart is beating hard. If I let my hands still for a moment they tremble. Stinging eyes, head pounding, stomach cramping and my tongue is thick with white film. These delightful symptoms are all down to the latest batch of steroids. For over a fortnight I've existed on an exhausting jittery energy. I've finished … Continue reading Shaking But Writing