Kind of emotional today as I put a lot of worry and sadness into a piece I'm writing for Dear Damsels. Their current theme is Connection. My not-so-little sister came to mind. I was around fifteen when she was born, we have an amazing relationship. being apart from her is one of the hardest things … Continue reading Connections
Lordy it's hard to get into routine again. I'm now steroid free and my asthma is pretty well controlled. However, I am also not likely to be dressed before midday. However, yesterday I did a bit of reading from The Emotional Craft of Fiction exploring the ways in which to portray a characters emotions. It … Continue reading I’m Trying
I love a routine. there's a predictable sequence of events which leads me to falling out of my patterns. , Sometimes it's caused by Illness, mental or physical, or a major upheaval like the recent renovations to the house. there are innumerable stresses that can shatter my illusion of control. Whatever the cause. the same … Continue reading Getting Back Into Routine
My mood is unpredictable. Extreme lows and hours of lethargy come before obsessive bouts of activity. Its difficult to find balance. Yesterday I began writing a piece for Dear Damsels on the theme nature. The words came in a flurry. laptop on my knees, rain and wind beat at the windows. Dark thoughts colouring each … Continue reading It’s In My Nature
Christmas time is a beautiful and wonderful thing, from seeing family and friends to chocolate oranges and fairylights strewn across buildings. However it is also draining, physically and mentally. Money worries and family politics. That's not to mention the inevitable illness that comes from doing too much and eating out of a routine. It's a … Continue reading Is It Over Yet?
I have a friend who wonderfully talented and supportive. One of those people who are good at most things. Apart from getting in touch, I'm for sure better at that. They also read this blog...so... Often times I feel a bit like an amorphous blob when I think about all the things they have accomplished. … Continue reading Retreating
Simultaneously feeling isolated and overwhelmed. Out at a meal today I had the tightening of a dread knot in my stomach, clumsy words and an intense desire to leave the table and never return. I've not felt this way in a while. This morning I didn't find any joy in writing my novel. Uncomfortable and anxious at the … Continue reading Mental Health And Self Care
My week has been a whirlwind of activity. I cannot think of a single day in which I had time to rest, never mind write! I can feel my mind becoming overloaded. Manic bursts of energy followed by pure exhaustion. Days rush past with unnatural speed. Tight cracking jaw, the frustrating insistence of a tension headache. … Continue reading …And Breathe
I am a creature of habit, or perhaps more accurately, habit and routine are important aspects of my recovery. The times in my life when my routine is disrupted, inevitably lead to heightened anxiety. That has not changed through my recovery. What has changed is the way I deal with that anxiety. I now know … Continue reading Disrupted Routine.