I'm working on sending a submission to Horror Tree under the headline Ghosts on Drugs. A nasty bout of depression which stole my motivation, which meant I missed the deadline for my novel. The computer is a bit of a scary place now, it's a place where I fail to write my novel. My laptop is … Continue reading Writing from Experience
Whether it's a tempory high or a sign that this current haze of anxiety and depression is passing, my motivation is back with a vengeance. There are lists upon lists of things I want to write, make and fix. One terrifying task looming on the horizon is the dreaded driving test. I am straddling the … Continue reading Getting My Writing Mojo Back
I've been feeling pretty dreadful recently. This is my escape to the mountains, day four. Hotel Armin, Selva Val Gardena,Italy 29th June 2016, 12.50pm I only left the hotel an hour ago. Yesterday was incredible, but tiring. We managed to spot some edelweiss. They are a strange flower. A group of german walkers were delighted … Continue reading Day Four: In Which I Recover From Sunburn
I may sound like a broken record but here goes anyway. I've been feeling a little down recently. I bet if I bothered to check, that phrase would be the most common throughout my blogging. For those of you who don't know, I've suffered from depression for a fair while now. For the most part, … Continue reading Ha.
I now have a couple of months in which to edit my first 10,000 words. Reading back over my previous revisions I realised it was a little dull. The information is there, laid out in a concise effective manner. The world has magical aspects but the wonder of that magic has been lost. Today I spent … Continue reading The magic is back
Today feels better than yesterday. I survived social pressures of the dedication service and managed to leave relatively unscathed by well meaning relatives. I find it increasingly difficult to reply to the question how are you. particularly when i am not doing great. I tend to reply with a non-specific, 'I'm doing ok thanks.' It's … Continue reading Positive Coping Mechanisms Ahoy!
I'm struggling. with writing, with sewing, with socialising. I'm even finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning. I've managed to do bits of writing, but it's the bare minimum. I feel sad. A heavy, tiring sadness. The melancholy is punctuated by moments of happiness. Today I saw my niece who … Continue reading Things don’t always feel better in the morning.
This morning I got up, out of bed and sat happily down at my computer. After compulsively changing wording on my previous scene I decided to word with a tried and tested method. I set an alarm for ten minutes and write any old rubbish that vaguely related to the scene. It worked. I spent about … Continue reading Morning writing is the best writing.
Today I wrote the second scene in a chapter. It's far from perfect but I'm relatively happy with it. I still need to get to know this character a little more to be happy with the writing. I've got the substance done now, it's just the style I want to work on. I find it … Continue reading Why do I avoid Writing?
Today is my third wedding anniversary. I've had a lovely day and I am writing this as my husband is playing Dark Souls III, his anniversary present. It's the first day I've felt relaxed in a couple of weeks. We played a game of Pandemic Legacy and I had fun organising my brand new sewing box. I … Continue reading An Anniversary Post