I woke up feeling rotten. Cramps, headache, stuffy nose and sore throat. My brain doesn't want to work. Just a run of the mill cold but for some reason its getting me down. forced a bit of writing out this morning and plan to spend the rest of the day curled up with a hot … Continue reading Autumn
Hi there, I'm bi, or pan, or both? To be perfectly honest I'm still struggling to differentiate the two. I find myself looking up the difference every couple of months just to make sure. There seems to be a bit of confusion around the Bi in Bisexuality, some thinking it stands two genders and excludes … Continue reading Bisexuality Day!
Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal
Today I woke up with and felt rested for the first time since reducing my sertraline dose. Dusting off the ring-fit I even managed a good fifteen minutes of exercise. Two weeks of exhaustion, heightened anxiety, brain fog, headaches, a funny tummy and visual disturbances and I might be coming out the other side. And … Continue reading Pushing Through The Fog
Today I had to write down all of my conditions and diagnosis. Dyslexia Anorexia Bulimia Depression Anxiety Asthma A small list that has defined me for many years. Some are still very much present whereas others I am well into recovery. Depression hasn't caught up with me for over a year and although I still have to … Continue reading Conditions
It was shocking that this happened to begin with. It was ridicules that the BBC defended the use of the word. It took the resignation of a young black man, David Whitley (AKA DJ sideman), and thousands of complaints for the higher ups at the BBC to realise that it is not okay to use … Continue reading Better Late Than Never?
We're onto chapter Four of Layla F. Saads Me and White Supremacy. White Silence. My this is taking longer than I thought. I have to constantly remind myself this is not a race but an ongoing process. White Silence is the defending of the status quo. I defend my guilt and silence by assuming I … Continue reading White Silence And Complicity
Mindfulness has never sat easy with me. A mix of boredom and frustration. Grounding techniques and being mindful of my environment can help with anxiety and panic attacks. However, as a long term coping strategy I shy away from it, I struggle to figure out the difference between noticing a thought and thinking about a … Continue reading Peaceful Imaginings
Today I set a fifteen-minute timer and let my mind loose on an unwritten scene. A release from the minutia of revision, I'd like to set more time aside for this, a chance to let the characters develop organically through dialogue and action. If you've been following me you'll know I have set up a … Continue reading Slow Progress is Still Progress
Kind of emotional today as I put a lot of worry and sadness into a piece I'm writing for Dear Damsels. Their current theme is Connection. My not-so-little sister came to mind. I was around fifteen when she was born, we have an amazing relationship. being apart from her is one of the hardest things … Continue reading Connections