Representation

I am reading Pet by Akwaeke Emezi. Within the first two chapters it has sensitively and honesty portrayed the experience of a selectively mute black trans girl in a utopian future. Such quick work but I'm already absorbed. why do I think it’s so hard to write minority characters? I’m scared to go back to … Continue reading Representation

A Masters?

This writing course has stirred up an old familiar longing, to head back into academia. Namely A Creative Writing MA. Having been exposed to new writing and given assignments I am eager for more. I just received feedback for the short piece Home. After a few butterflies I opened the email. It was a pleasant … Continue reading A Masters?

Reading

This evening I'll be joining a workshop hosted by Out On The Page. I'm pretty nervous about it but excited too. In the first meeting we'll be discussing characters. We were asked to think about recent books or short stories and the characters in them. My brain went blank, I could not remember anything I'd … Continue reading Reading

Autumn

I woke up feeling rotten. Cramps, headache, stuffy nose and sore throat. My brain doesn't want to work. Just a run of the mill cold but for some reason its getting me down. forced a bit of writing out this morning and plan to spend the rest of the day curled up with a hot … Continue reading Autumn

Bisexuality Day!

Hi there, I'm bi, or pan, or both? To be perfectly honest I'm still struggling to differentiate the two. I find myself looking up the difference every couple of months just to make sure. There seems to be a bit of confusion around the Bi in Bisexuality, some thinking it stands two genders and excludes … Continue reading Bisexuality Day!

Two Weeks Into Withdrawal

Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal

Pushing Through The Fog

Today I woke up with and felt rested for the first time since reducing my sertraline dose. Dusting off the ring-fit I even managed a good fifteen minutes of exercise. Two weeks of exhaustion, heightened anxiety, brain fog, headaches, a funny tummy and visual disturbances and I might be coming out the other side. And … Continue reading Pushing Through The Fog

Conditions

Today I had to write down all of my conditions and diagnosis.  Dyslexia Anorexia Bulimia  Depression Anxiety Asthma A small list that has defined me for many years. Some are still very much present whereas others I am well into recovery. Depression hasn't caught up with me for over a year and although I still have to … Continue reading Conditions

Better Late Than Never?

It was shocking that this happened to begin with. It was ridicules that the BBC defended the use of the word. It took the resignation of a young black man, David Whitley (AKA DJ sideman), and thousands of complaints for the higher ups at the BBC to realise that it is not okay to use … Continue reading Better Late Than Never?

White Silence And Complicity

We're onto chapter Four of Layla F. Saads Me and White Supremacy. White Silence. My this is taking longer than I thought. I have to constantly remind myself this is not a race but an ongoing process. White Silence is the defending of the status quo. I defend my guilt and silence by assuming I … Continue reading White Silence And Complicity