I’m Trying

Lordy it's hard to get into routine again. I'm now steroid free and my asthma is pretty well controlled. However, I am also not likely to be dressed before midday. However, yesterday I did a bit of reading from The Emotional Craft of Fiction exploring the ways in which to portray a characters emotions. It … Continue reading I’m Trying

Relationships

The past few days I've been struggling with stomach cramps. hot water bottle and curled up in bed. Writing didn't happen, or at least not much. the hour change was a pain in the ass too. If there was any year we could all collectively ignore British Summer Time it's this one. What does it … Continue reading Relationships

Shaking But Writing

My heart is beating hard. If I let my hands still for a moment they tremble. Stinging eyes, head pounding, stomach cramping and my tongue is thick with white film. These delightful symptoms are all down to the latest batch of steroids. For over a fortnight I've existed on an exhausting jittery energy. I've finished … Continue reading Shaking But Writing

A Cautious Admittance 

So I just noticed that the last few blogs I've written have been to do with my mental health. I think this means I need to do more than simply writing to do lists. I can plan to my hearts content but the reality is i've got a hell of a lot of events coming … Continue reading A Cautious Admittance 

Things don’t always feel better in the morning.

  I'm struggling. with writing, with sewing, with socialising. I'm even finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning. I've managed to do bits of writing, but it's the bare minimum. I feel sad. A heavy, tiring sadness.  The melancholy is punctuated by moments of happiness. Today I saw my niece who … Continue reading Things don’t always feel better in the morning.

Disrupted Routine.

I am a creature of habit, or perhaps more accurately, habit and routine are important aspects of my recovery. The times in my life when my routine is disrupted, inevitably lead to heightened anxiety. That has not changed through my recovery. What has changed is the way I deal with that anxiety. I now know … Continue reading Disrupted Routine.