Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal
Today I had to write down all of my conditions and diagnosis. Dyslexia Anorexia Bulimia Depression Anxiety Asthma A small list that has defined me for many years. Some are still very much present whereas others I am well into recovery. Depression hasn't caught up with me for over a year and although I still have to … Continue reading Conditions
Kind of emotional today as I put a lot of worry and sadness into a piece I'm writing for Dear Damsels. Their current theme is Connection. My not-so-little sister came to mind. I was around fifteen when she was born, we have an amazing relationship. being apart from her is one of the hardest things … Continue reading Connections
So I just noticed that the last few blogs I've written have been to do with my mental health. I think this means I need to do more than simply writing to do lists. I can plan to my hearts content but the reality is i've got a hell of a lot of events coming … Continue reading A Cautious Admittance
I'm struggling. with writing, with sewing, with socialising. I'm even finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning. I've managed to do bits of writing, but it's the bare minimum. I feel sad. A heavy, tiring sadness. The melancholy is punctuated by moments of happiness. Today I saw my niece who … Continue reading Things don’t always feel better in the morning.