I have taken the virus seriously since it began. Not because i'm incredibly altruistic or restrained. I seriously feared for my life due to asthma. I am also privileged because I'm not currently in work, so there were no difficult decisions to make. On wednesday my anxiety reached new peaks. My husband was tired through … Continue reading It’s Beginning To Hit Home
Or rather my tiny part of the internet. Just a little post to congratulate myself on submitting a piece to Dear Damsels. I think the hardest part was the biography. Rebekah is an aspiring novelist living with her husband and two cats in the east midlands. When she’s not writing you’ll find her at a … Continue reading Hello World?
So I just noticed that the last few blogs I've written have been to do with my mental health. I think this means I need to do more than simply writing to do lists. I can plan to my hearts content but the reality is i've got a hell of a lot of events coming … Continue reading A Cautious Admittance
I have been somewhat overwhelmed of late. My calendar is full and my mind won't stay still. I find posting relaxing. It gives me a chance to collect my thoughts and process the day. There are times when my anxiety does not want me to take account of my days. I'm afraid that if I stop … Continue reading A Bit Of a Catch-Up
My week has been a whirlwind of activity. I cannot think of a single day in which I had time to rest, never mind write! I can feel my mind becoming overloaded. Manic bursts of energy followed by pure exhaustion. Days rush past with unnatural speed. Tight cracking jaw, the frustrating insistence of a tension headache. … Continue reading …And Breathe
My routine has been shot to hell due to various disruptions; ranging from a funeral to a nasty illness in which I slept for five days straight. It's bee about a week since we've gotten back and I'm beginning to chisel back some form of routine. Today I tackled the muddle that is the resolution of … Continue reading Hello There? I’m Back
I'm working on sending a submission to Horror Tree under the headline Ghosts on Drugs. A nasty bout of depression which stole my motivation, which meant I missed the deadline for my novel. The computer is a bit of a scary place now, it's a place where I fail to write my novel. My laptop is … Continue reading Writing from Experience
I now have a couple of months in which to edit my first 10,000 words. Reading back over my previous revisions I realised it was a little dull. The information is there, laid out in a concise effective manner. The world has magical aspects but the wonder of that magic has been lost. Today I spent … Continue reading The magic is back
Today feels better than yesterday. I survived social pressures of the dedication service and managed to leave relatively unscathed by well meaning relatives. I find it increasingly difficult to reply to the question how are you. particularly when i am not doing great. I tend to reply with a non-specific, 'I'm doing ok thanks.' It's … Continue reading Positive Coping Mechanisms Ahoy!
I'm struggling. with writing, with sewing, with socialising. I'm even finding it difficult to get out of bed in the morning. I've managed to do bits of writing, but it's the bare minimum. I feel sad. A heavy, tiring sadness. The melancholy is punctuated by moments of happiness. Today I saw my niece who … Continue reading Things don’t always feel better in the morning.