Two Weeks Into Withdrawal

Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal

Conditions

Today I had to write down all of my conditions and diagnosis.  Dyslexia Anorexia Bulimia  Depression Anxiety Asthma A small list that has defined me for many years. Some are still very much present whereas others I am well into recovery. Depression hasn't caught up with me for over a year and although I still have to … Continue reading Conditions

Asking Permission

Today I learned to slow down and ask permission. I have not gone back to normal. I am educating myself everyday on issues surrounding the Black Lives Matter movement researching more black businesses to buy from and donating to causes when I can. My online profile doesn't necessarily reflect this. There have been so many … Continue reading Asking Permission

Pause

It's just a quick one today, I'm exhausted. Since the death of George Floyd and the calls for action I have thrown myself into the Black Lives Matter movement. I really don't want this to come across as feeling sorry for myself or patting myself on the back. Any depression anxiety or frustration I am … Continue reading Pause

Connections

Kind of emotional today as I put a lot of worry and sadness into a piece I'm writing for Dear Damsels. Their current theme is Connection. My not-so-little sister came to mind. I was around fifteen when she was born, we have an amazing relationship. being apart from her is one of the hardest things … Continue reading Connections

Let’s Try This Again

It's been a tough couple of days full of frustration, irritability and tension headaches. It turns out i was putting too much pressure on myself, not a huge revelation but it helped me get a few things sorted. The daunting prospect of unknown weeks without social contact got to me. It comes in waves. Some … Continue reading Let’s Try This Again

It’s Beginning To Hit Home

I have taken the virus seriously since it began. Not because i'm incredibly altruistic or restrained. I seriously feared for my life due to asthma. I am also privileged because I'm not currently in work, so there were no difficult decisions to make. On wednesday my anxiety reached new peaks. My husband was tired through … Continue reading It’s Beginning To Hit Home

Hello World?

Or rather my tiny part of the internet. Just a little post to congratulate myself on submitting a piece to Dear Damsels. I think the hardest part was the biography. Rebekah is an aspiring novelist living with her husband and two cats in the east midlands. When she’s not writing you’ll find her at a … Continue reading Hello World?

A Cautious Admittance 

So I just noticed that the last few blogs I've written have been to do with my mental health. I think this means I need to do more than simply writing to do lists. I can plan to my hearts content but the reality is i've got a hell of a lot of events coming … Continue reading A Cautious Admittance 

A Bit Of a Catch-Up

I have been somewhat overwhelmed of late. My calendar is full and my mind won't stay still. I find posting relaxing. It gives me a chance to collect my thoughts and process the day. There are times when my anxiety does not want me to take account of my days. I'm afraid that if I stop … Continue reading A Bit Of a Catch-Up