Normal is a nebulous term, particularly now-a-days. Three weeks into Sertraline reduction and my mood is beginning to stabilise. I no longer feel depressed mid-afternoon and have so much more energy and focus. Sure there are highs and lows, pain hits harder and happy times leave me dancing about the room. One amazing result of … Continue reading Normality?
After feeling the worst i had in some time yesterday, today I appear to have turned a corner. I have been remarkably happier and dare I say, productive. I booked myself into a writing course, and spent an hour or so working on my novel. It's just a quick post for today as it's coming … Continue reading Productive?
Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal
Today I woke up with and felt rested for the first time since reducing my sertraline dose. Dusting off the ring-fit I even managed a good fifteen minutes of exercise. Two weeks of exhaustion, heightened anxiety, brain fog, headaches, a funny tummy and visual disturbances and I might be coming out the other side. And … Continue reading Pushing Through The Fog
I believe I am on my fifth day of reducing my sertraline dose. The main side effects have been headaches, fatigue nausea and bouts of irritability. All in all not as bad as I thought it would be as the symptoms don't last long. It's worst at night, I suppose because that's the longest time … Continue reading Withdrawal
Writing has not been happening recently, I'm reducing my sertraline (anti-depressant) dose so giving myself a bit of a break for most things. Instead I've been doing a few sketches of my protagonist which has been fun. Creating outfits has helped with character development and world building. I shan't be talking about Me and White … Continue reading Taking It Easy
Today I woke up tired, Asthma was pretty bad yesterday as I had to run up the drive to get donuts in the pouring rain. were the doughnuts worth it? Yes. Yes they were. Facebook kept advertising Project Doughnut at me until I could no longer resist, If you can believe it this is the … Continue reading Doughnuts Help
This week has shown once again the need for dramatic change in the police force. I shan't speak much on the matter, There is a danger when trying to spread awareness one can inadvertently re-traumatise a community. if you want to learn more about Trauma in Black Communities please read Ashlee Marie Preston's Sorry Consuming … Continue reading This Not A Moment It’s The Movement
Today I had to write down all of my conditions and diagnosis. Dyslexia Anorexia Bulimia Depression Anxiety Asthma A small list that has defined me for many years. Some are still very much present whereas others I am well into recovery. Depression hasn't caught up with me for over a year and although I still have to … Continue reading Conditions
Dabble is still working well for me, I've transferred another scene and wrote up scene notes for character, locations and plot points. A very clean layout. Scrivener is still my favourite for developing plot and writing but Dabble works very well for revising. For the past few days I've been suffering from a nasty cold. … Continue reading Touch is Complicated