Pushing Through The Fog

Today I woke up with and felt rested for the first time since reducing my sertraline dose. Dusting off the ring-fit I even managed a good fifteen minutes of exercise. Two weeks of exhaustion, heightened anxiety, brain fog, headaches, a funny tummy and visual disturbances and I might be coming out the other side. And … Continue reading Pushing Through The Fog

Withdrawal

I believe I am on my fifth day of reducing my sertraline dose. The main side effects have been headaches, fatigue nausea and bouts of irritability. All in all not as bad as I thought it would be as the symptoms don't last long. It's worst at night, I suppose because that's the longest time … Continue reading Withdrawal

Taking It Easy

Writing has not been happening recently, I'm reducing my sertraline (anti-depressant) dose so giving myself a bit of a break for most things. Instead I've been doing a few sketches of my protagonist which has been fun. Creating outfits has helped with character development and world building. I shan't be talking about Me and White … Continue reading Taking It Easy

Conditions

Today I had to write down all of my conditions and diagnosis.  Dyslexia Anorexia Bulimia  Depression Anxiety Asthma A small list that has defined me for many years. Some are still very much present whereas others I am well into recovery. Depression hasn't caught up with me for over a year and although I still have to … Continue reading Conditions

White Exceptionalism

My week of steroids is over! Jeez I hate these things. I don't know if any of you need short courses of steroids but they really mess me up. The strange fuzzy head mixed with exhaustion from my lungs overworking. Slowly 'm returning to some semblance of normality. Today I worked on White Exceptionalism from … Continue reading White Exceptionalism

White Silence And Complicity

We're onto chapter Four of Layla F. Saads Me and White Supremacy. White Silence. My this is taking longer than I thought. I have to constantly remind myself this is not a race but an ongoing process. White Silence is the defending of the status quo. I defend my guilt and silence by assuming I … Continue reading White Silence And Complicity

Peaceful Imaginings

Mindfulness has never sat easy with me. A mix of boredom and frustration. Grounding techniques and being mindful of my environment can help with anxiety and panic attacks. However, as a long term coping strategy I shy away from it, I struggle to figure out the difference between noticing a thought and thinking about a … Continue reading Peaceful Imaginings

Making Time To Write

I've followed a couple of courses from Reedsy in the past the first being How to Craft a Killer Short Story by Laura Mae Isaacman, it was very useful in exploring new ways to craft short stories. I've also signed up for Build a Rock Solid Writing Routine, though have been terribly neglectful in reading … Continue reading Making Time To Write

Pause

It's just a quick one today, I'm exhausted. Since the death of George Floyd and the calls for action I have thrown myself into the Black Lives Matter movement. I really don't want this to come across as feeling sorry for myself or patting myself on the back. Any depression anxiety or frustration I am … Continue reading Pause