I am reading Pet by Akwaeke Emezi. Within the first two chapters it has sensitively and honesty portrayed the experience of a selectively mute black trans girl in a utopian future. Such quick work but I'm already absorbed. why do I think it’s so hard to write minority characters? I’m scared to go back to … Continue reading Representation
This writing course has stirred up an old familiar longing, to head back into academia. Namely A Creative Writing MA. Having been exposed to new writing and given assignments I am eager for more. I just received feedback for the short piece Home. After a few butterflies I opened the email. It was a pleasant … Continue reading A Masters?
This evening I'll be joining a workshop hosted by Out On The Page. I'm pretty nervous about it but excited too. In the first meeting we'll be discussing characters. We were asked to think about recent books or short stories and the characters in them. My brain went blank, I could not remember anything I'd … Continue reading Reading
I woke up feeling rotten. Cramps, headache, stuffy nose and sore throat. My brain doesn't want to work. Just a run of the mill cold but for some reason its getting me down. forced a bit of writing out this morning and plan to spend the rest of the day curled up with a hot … Continue reading Autumn
Hi there, I'm bi, or pan, or both? To be perfectly honest I'm still struggling to differentiate the two. I find myself looking up the difference every couple of months just to make sure. There seems to be a bit of confusion around the Bi in Bisexuality, some thinking it stands two genders and excludes … Continue reading Bisexuality Day!
Normal is a nebulous term, particularly now-a-days. Three weeks into Sertraline reduction and my mood is beginning to stabilise. I no longer feel depressed mid-afternoon and have so much more energy and focus. Sure there are highs and lows, pain hits harder and happy times leave me dancing about the room. One amazing result of … Continue reading Normality?
After feeling the worst i had in some time yesterday, today I appear to have turned a corner. I have been remarkably happier and dare I say, productive. I booked myself into a writing course, and spent an hour or so working on my novel. It's just a quick post for today as it's coming … Continue reading Productive?
Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal
Today I woke up with and felt rested for the first time since reducing my sertraline dose. Dusting off the ring-fit I even managed a good fifteen minutes of exercise. Two weeks of exhaustion, heightened anxiety, brain fog, headaches, a funny tummy and visual disturbances and I might be coming out the other side. And … Continue reading Pushing Through The Fog
I believe I am on my fifth day of reducing my sertraline dose. The main side effects have been headaches, fatigue nausea and bouts of irritability. All in all not as bad as I thought it would be as the symptoms don't last long. It's worst at night, I suppose because that's the longest time … Continue reading Withdrawal