Uncreative

Just a tiny update to keep myself accountable. Writing has been hard recently. There's a certain amount of self assurance needed to craft a narrative and bring characters to life. Right now I'm struggling with self-worth and low moods. A chasm spreads between me and the world I want to create. I'm managing to do … Continue reading Uncreative

Tales Of Woe

Life is starting to settle a little. It’s been long enough since my cancer scare and subsequent hospital visit (in which they stuck a camera up my nose) that my body and mind are finding a way back to ‘normal’. I finished A Graphic Novel today, Vicious Creatures Nine tales of Woe and Misadventure by … Continue reading Tales Of Woe

Representation

I am reading Pet by Akwaeke Emezi. Within the first two chapters it has sensitively and honesty portrayed the experience of a selectively mute black trans girl in a utopian future. Such quick work but I'm already absorbed. why do I think it’s so hard to write minority characters? I’m scared to go back to … Continue reading Representation

A Masters?

This writing course has stirred up an old familiar longing, to head back into academia. Namely A Creative Writing MA. Having been exposed to new writing and given assignments I am eager for more. I just received feedback for the short piece Home. After a few butterflies I opened the email. It was a pleasant … Continue reading A Masters?

Reading

This evening I'll be joining a workshop hosted by Out On The Page. I'm pretty nervous about it but excited too. In the first meeting we'll be discussing characters. We were asked to think about recent books or short stories and the characters in them. My brain went blank, I could not remember anything I'd … Continue reading Reading

Autumn

I woke up feeling rotten. Cramps, headache, stuffy nose and sore throat. My brain doesn't want to work. Just a run of the mill cold but for some reason its getting me down. forced a bit of writing out this morning and plan to spend the rest of the day curled up with a hot … Continue reading Autumn

Bisexuality Day!

Hi there, I'm bi, or pan, or both? To be perfectly honest I'm still struggling to differentiate the two. I find myself looking up the difference every couple of months just to make sure. There seems to be a bit of confusion around the Bi in Bisexuality, some thinking it stands two genders and excludes … Continue reading Bisexuality Day!

Normality?

Normal is a nebulous term, particularly now-a-days. Three weeks into Sertraline reduction and my mood is beginning to stabilise. I no longer feel depressed mid-afternoon and have so much more energy and focus. Sure there are highs and lows, pain hits harder and happy times leave me dancing about the room. One amazing result of … Continue reading Normality?

Productive?

After feeling the worst i had in some time yesterday, today I appear to have turned a corner. I have been remarkably happier and dare I say, productive. I booked myself into a writing course, and spent an hour or so working on my novel. It's just a quick post for today as it's coming … Continue reading Productive?

Two Weeks Into Withdrawal

Between 2.30 and 4.30 a tired anxious lethargy comes upon me. Head buzzing with too many thoughts, acting on any one of those is near impossible. My body, tightly coiled. Do not touch me, do not come close. Shallow quick breaths. Food can help, so can rest if my mind allows. I keep having to … Continue reading Two Weeks Into Withdrawal