I have a friend who wonderfully talented and supportive. One of those people who are good at most things. Apart from getting in touch, I'm for sure better at that. They also read this blog...so... Often times I feel a bit like an amorphous blob when I think about all the things they have accomplished. … Continue reading Retreating
My husband has been ill with an undiagnosed stomach issue for coming up to two years now. We have seen many doctors and had umpteen tests. none of which have been able to shed any light on what is actually making him ill. The most frustrating aspect of this illness is the unpredictability. it is … Continue reading Things Are Just A Little Bit More Difficult
Simultaneously feeling isolated and overwhelmed. Out at a meal today I had the tightening of a dread knot in my stomach, clumsy words and an intense desire to leave the table and never return. I've not felt this way in a while. This morning I didn't find any joy in writing my novel. Uncomfortable and anxious at the … Continue reading Mental Health And Self Care
So I just noticed that the last few blogs I've written have been to do with my mental health. I think this means I need to do more than simply writing to do lists. I can plan to my hearts content but the reality is i've got a hell of a lot of events coming … Continue reading A Cautious Admittance
I have been somewhat overwhelmed of late. My calendar is full and my mind won't stay still. I find posting relaxing. It gives me a chance to collect my thoughts and process the day. There are times when my anxiety does not want me to take account of my days. I'm afraid that if I stop … Continue reading A Bit Of a Catch-Up
My week has been a whirlwind of activity. I cannot think of a single day in which I had time to rest, never mind write! I can feel my mind becoming overloaded. Manic bursts of energy followed by pure exhaustion. Days rush past with unnatural speed. Tight cracking jaw, the frustrating insistence of a tension headache. … Continue reading …And Breathe
I'm working on sending a submission to Horror Tree under the headline Ghosts on Drugs. A nasty bout of depression which stole my motivation, which meant I missed the deadline for my novel. The computer is a bit of a scary place now, it's a place where I fail to write my novel. My laptop is … Continue reading Writing from Experience
Whether it's a tempory high or a sign that this current haze of anxiety and depression is passing, my motivation is back with a vengeance. There are lists upon lists of things I want to write, make and fix. One terrifying task looming on the horizon is the dreaded driving test. I am straddling the … Continue reading Getting My Writing Mojo Back
I may sound like a broken record but here goes anyway. I've been feeling a little down recently. I bet if I bothered to check, that phrase would be the most common throughout my blogging. For those of you who don't know, I've suffered from depression for a fair while now. For the most part, … Continue reading Ha.
Today feels better than yesterday. I survived social pressures of the dedication service and managed to leave relatively unscathed by well meaning relatives. I find it increasingly difficult to reply to the question how are you. particularly when i am not doing great. I tend to reply with a non-specific, 'I'm doing ok thanks.' It's … Continue reading Positive Coping Mechanisms Ahoy!