Virtual Birthday Party And Character Motivation

It's a bit of a late post tonight. today is my mum's birthday and we've been having fun playing virtual board games, Saboteur to be precise. We managed to get the whole family together for a games night. Earlier in the day we sang happy birthday with the two grandchildren. They had a cupcake each … Continue reading Virtual Birthday Party And Character Motivation

A Good Morning Spent Writing And Revising

Life feels a little easier today. I know many wise people are saying in these times we shouldn't put pressure on ourselves to get everything done. I agree. However, I need to do things in order to feel like i'm in control. Writing helps me. Sewing helps me. Doing exercises helps me. It's all in … Continue reading A Good Morning Spent Writing And Revising

It’s Beginning To Hit Home

I have taken the virus seriously since it began. Not because i'm incredibly altruistic or restrained. I seriously feared for my life due to asthma. I am also privileged because I'm not currently in work, so there were no difficult decisions to make. On wednesday my anxiety reached new peaks. My husband was tired through … Continue reading It’s Beginning To Hit Home

Shaking But Writing

My heart is beating hard. If I let my hands still for a moment they tremble. Stinging eyes, head pounding, stomach cramping and my tongue is thick with white film. These delightful symptoms are all down to the latest batch of steroids. For over a fortnight I've existed on an exhausting jittery energy. I've finished … Continue reading Shaking But Writing

Social Distancing

Becoming socially distant sounds like something my therapist would warn against, a red flag for worsening depression. The world has changed. It's only been a week since I was deciding whether to stay home or go to work. Now it looks like I may well be 'shielding' myself for at least 12 weeks. I am … Continue reading Social Distancing

It’s In My Nature

My mood is unpredictable. Extreme lows and hours of lethargy come before obsessive bouts of activity. Its difficult to find balance. Yesterday I began writing a piece for Dear Damsels on the theme nature. The words came in a flurry. laptop on my knees, rain and wind beat at the windows. Dark thoughts colouring each … Continue reading It’s In My Nature

Is It Over Yet?

Christmas time is a beautiful and wonderful thing, from seeing family and friends to chocolate oranges and fairylights strewn across buildings. However it is also draining, physically and mentally. Money worries and family politics. That's not to mention the inevitable illness that comes from doing too much and eating out of a routine. It's a … Continue reading Is It Over Yet?

South Stack Lighthouse

Day Five: A trip to the Lighthouse Ragged and wild, I felt at home. Seagulls soar below, dark wings arched. Uneven steps narrow and worn. The Lighthouse white and sturdy against the rough seas. Dark sprawling patches of water like the shadow of a Kraken. Tides meeting, white waves crashing against placid waters. A thrill … Continue reading South Stack Lighthouse

Plas Newydd

Day Four: Magnolia Garden and two friendly robins Tom is still struggling today, weak legs and extreme fatigue. My mother-in-law is brewing a pot of tea and my father in law is off trying to take photos of RAF planes. Ridicules in it's opulence, tiered gardens, canons positioned against balustrades, the Menai straits spreading out … Continue reading Plas Newydd