…am I supposed to keep that a secret?
I have now sent off my Flash Fiction to Writers’ Forum, after changing it to the first person (see yesterday’s post). While I was at it I figured I may as well send the piece off to the Winchester Writers’ Festival Writing Competition. They required a pseudonym. I had a lot of fun thinking of names for myself. I finally settled on Hester Jones. I have somewhat fallen in love with the name Hester. I imagine she is around 5,2″ with lots of freckles, Her hair is mousy brown and it hangs just below her chin. She wears sensible shoes and thick socks. Though she is small she is not meek. I think I will like being Hester Jones.
I was just getting ready to send off my flash fiction when I decided to listened to that nagging voice which told me to recheck the specifications. After finally finding the correct magazine I was very thankful to that voice. I’d completely missed the fact that the piece is supposed to be first person. It shouldn’t be difficult to edit. It will probably work better that way.
Editing will be tomorrow’s task. I was so pleased with myself for getting the flash fiction finished before the due date. If I get it sent off tomorrow I will still be one day early.
I Spent today revising my flash fiction down from 900 to 500. The first 200 words were easy. it began to get a little trickier after that. I think I’m happy with the result. I’m not sure if the story is any good, but my husband liked it so that’s something. My main motivation for submitting a piece of writing every month is not necessarily to get myself published, but form more habits and to lose some of the fear of sending off my work. Though winning a competition would be lovely.
I don’t know if this is something unique to me, but I’m feeling more than a little embarrassed at taking so long to write a piece of flash fiction. I feel like I should just be able to hash out five hundred words and be done with it. five hundred words in a novel is barely a scene, I know I can write that amount in an hour and be relativity happy with it. I have always struggled with endings. I also really enjoy taking my time to get to know a character, dropping small hints and contradictions. With such a short I am having to be so much more concise. I hope the more short stories I write the better my writing will get. I’ve got to cut my flash fiction down from nine hundred. I don’t think that will be too tricky. I’m sure I have waffled on.
Having finished a draft of a story today I’m finding it difficult to get on with my novel. I’m just pretty darn pleased with myself. I want to leave the draft until at least tomorrow, just to give my brain a little space from it.
Today’s Word Count: 671
After the horrors of dentist yesterday I decided to take today off work. I wrote a to do list and had a very productive morning. My writing went pretty well today. I wrote about 350 words of my flash fiction. Considering the total word count is meant to be 500, I will be doing a fair bit of editing. I’ve got a final scene to write, which shouldn’t take too long.
I also managed to write a bit more of my novel. It’s very exciting as my two protagonists have now met. I’ve altered the plot a little in this chapter. This part of my novel feels more like a first draft than a revision. I’m discovering the world from a different point of view.
Today’s Word Count: 806
I have discovered I don’t do well with short deadlines. I need a story to ruminate. The characters have to grow into themselves.
Thankfully due to a typo in Writers’ Forum, I was given an extra month to write my flash fiction. I’ve practically finished it now, just a few tidying up bits.
Today’s Word Count: 210 words
This morning I got up, out of bed and sat happily down at my computer. After compulsively changing wording on my previous scene I decided to word with a tried and tested method. I set an alarm for ten minutes and write any old rubbish that vaguely related to the scene.
It worked. I spent about five minutes messing about, but when the alarm went off I irritably turned it off and wrote happily for over an hour.
Today’s word count: 680
Today I wrote the second scene in a chapter. It’s far from perfect but I’m relatively happy with it. I still need to get to know this character a little more to be happy with the writing. I’ve got the substance done now, it’s just the style I want to work on. I find it incredibly difficult to leave a section alone. However I know if I keep trying to edit throughout this draft I will never actually have a completed novel.
That being said, I managed to spend most of the day avoiding writing. I even sent boring work emails and tidied before sitting down at my computer. It was six o’clock by the time I actually began writing. I honestly do not understand why my brain does this to me. I love writing, I hate tidying.
In reality there is a simple explanation.
I feel pressure to write.
Because I feel pressure I will avoid thinking about writing and hope the words will magically appear
Avoidance can only last so long.
The end of the day nears and words I realise the words have not magically appeared.
I feel guilty and tired. I then avoid thinking about my novel some more.
Today I managed to break that cycle by actually writing before it got too late. it feels good to have gotten a little down. It would be a lot easier if I could have done this earlier in the day. It’s pretty exhausted avoiding things all day. It makes my stomach hurt.
I have been a little wobbly over the past couple of days and every little ‘failure’ has felt overwhelming. I did not go into work today. The day in has helped me feel a little more centred and in control. Handily I received my Buddy Box the other day which has lots of lovely helpful bits in it. Also a couple of friends have sent me really lovely messages.
Thanks for reading, it helps me feel less alone.
Today’s Word count: 674
Today is my third wedding anniversary. I’ve had a lovely day and I am writing this as my husband is playing Dark Souls III, his anniversary present. It’s the first day I’ve felt relaxed in a couple of weeks. We played a game of Pandemic Legacy and I had fun organising my brand new sewing box.
I did not put any pressure on myself to write today and as a result I managed to write a couple of hundred words of my Flash Fiction entry. I received my issue of Writers’ Forum today so I can hopefully get on with the next on soon.
Today’s word count: 337
Just a little blog post today as it’s been a very good but exhausting. I had a great day out at a blogger’s meet up hosted by Sew Essential. It was so much fun! I started a sweet little embroidery project and had a lovely time chatting with fellow stitcher’s. I will have to rest for a very long time after this hectic week. I wrote my other blog today, and that’s it.
Today’s Word count : 116